Quiet.

it's been a long time since i had a night like this.

no disturbances whatsoever, the room being just the right temperature and nothing smelling too bad wafting through my window.

and it's been a long time since i had a good think about things.
the end of my internship's drawing ever so near - and i can't help but stifle the thought that i'll really really miss all of them there.

i was hungry and they fed me.
i was thirsty and they gave me teh to drink.
i was left out so they gave me a shirt to match them.

a good bunch of people, they are. i'll especially miss the brother, the cousin, the aunt, the grandmother and of course the mother.
yeah, i really will - despite it only having being 5 months plus.







i should probably catch up with one or two old friends with the short holiday i have just after the end of my internship (24 days as of now) before the school term starts.

if you're reading this and you know somehow i'm thinking of you as i write this, or you're thinking of me as you read this, then you'll probably expect a sms or two in the weeks to come.







and then there's my maternal grandmother who apparently lost her mind. things don't really look good for her - in spite of it all i have this small speck of hope that she'll return to the kindly, doting old lady that i fondly remember she was, up until this year when things started to go downhill. the hope's there but it's fading fast.

the day she ceases to remember me as 'Yang' will be the day i never existed to her at all - as with the numerous others that have been forgotten along with fragments of her sanity. that day seems to be drawing ever so much closer everytime i hear a piece of disheartening news about her deteriorating condition.



what'll i do now?