In times of giddy exhilaration derived from the lack of sleep or the influence of alcohol, we attain some semblance of super-awareness that enables one to make certain choices and think about certain things that would otherwise be hidden.

such choices and thoughts may more often than not be undesirable if made based on the influence of alcohol, but if made under the influence of extreme exhaustion, one is able to think clearer - albiet in a strange sense of clarity, like how one might see the world differently through lenses that are of different sizes.

I have not slept since 9pm on the 20th of November. 

it is 1.58am on the 22nd of November now.