The New Year.

the new year's largely underwhelming - 'happy new year' may be a bit of a misnomer given the current state of things all around the world. 

i mean, the new year opened up with a nightclub burning down and people dying - how happy can that be?

and i'm gonna be nineteen this year.. my last year of being a teenager before i enter my TWENTIES next year... how on earth did i end up here? from a fun loving fat little boy to a fun loving fat not-so-little boy.

it's been nearly two decades since i first came into this world.. but it doesn't feel that way.

it seemed like just last month when i faked a stomachache in primary school so i could go home and watch my cartoons.

it seemed like just three weeks ago when i got my O level results.

it seemed like just last week when i entered poly.

slowly but surely, time is scraping away the flesh of my time here, ever so gently peeling the layers away exposing the raw, bleeding area underneath - sooner or later, it'll hit the bone, and we all know what happens after that.

i've seen the world of adults - and i don't like it one bit. 

the catty, bizatchy environment where politics rule and where if you aren't good looking, rich or related to some famous person, you're nothing. 

i don't wanna go into a world where one must bootlick, patronise and beg just to get noticed..

but alas, time and circumstance demand otherwise.

i don't wanna be nineteen. :(