Foolishness Indeed.

to think i ever considered myself a christian - a follow of Christ.
to think i ever thought i was gonna go to heaven.
to think i ever thought that i was saved.

profound things have happened which opened my eyes - what kind of christian am/was i?
i'm not a good testimony.. i never was.

one does not open the door to a stranger that has never talked to you.
similarly, how does one get into heaven when one knows NOTHING about God?
it clearly says in Matthew 7:21-23..

21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.

22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?

23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

all 17 years of my life being a "christian" has totally been wiped away. these 3 verses have said much more to me than any guilt-free gospel has ever said.

Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.

one does not do God's will by praying once and then getting on as if nothing's changed. something HAS to change. it's only natural.
there is ALWAYS the principle of cause and effect. if there is a CAUSE, there will be an EFFECT. not having an effect means there is no CAUSE - especially one as radical as this.

if one truly is renewed in Christ, one has to have life change - where is it? where has Ian Cheng Liang Hui changed?
he still offends people with crude remarks.
he still slacks off in his homework.
he doesn't give two hoots about his schooling life.
he spends three quarters of his day bumming around.
he's still a failure at every single academic subject thrust upon him.

there is NO difference between him and a aethist.
oh wait - there is!
an aethist is far by more focused and knows what he's doing.

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so much for being a "real" christian.


there have been so many lies in the current gospel being preached around the world - quoting a wise friend: it's a "nice, guilt free, conviction free Gospel".
whoever told you that praying one time in your entire life would get you to heaven LIED.
whoever told you that your life would change for the better after accepting God one time LIED.

acceptance was never a one time thing - acceptance is constantly renewed day by day.

everything i ever knew about christianity has been turned inside out.
christianity's not all rainbows and butterflies. the world isn't gonna get better for you even if you do accept Christ. but the direction WILL be set for you - the road is long and harsh, and there are many obstacles ahead.
the one thing that has to lead one on is the knowledge that one is fighting the good fight and running the good race..

and ultimately reaching the one goal.


if one does not know whose side one is on, how does one even go into battle?

EVERYTHING that has happened recently point toward one goal.
the signs are clear.
reminder after reminder has been given.
there HAS to be a change - and first i have to rediscover everything.

Proverbs 1:7 - The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.