Happenstance

this is the earliest i've been in the office thus far - 815 am.
this is the time i usually jolt out of bed and panic about being late for work.

it hasn't been a very good morning - i woke up 10 minutes later than i wanted to, my terrapin shat his tub again and stank up the kitchen, and i had stuff to poop but it just wouldn't come out, which wasted my time on the pearly-white throne in the toilet.

there's going to be a course today which i REALLY don't wanna go to (i'm not one for team-building games and senseless rah-rahing) and waking up early's definitely not a bonus. walking to the office didn't help either - it was a really warm morning and i was sweating buckets (it didn't help that i'm in white either).

what i'm thankful for today is that i've had a really good dream during those lousy 5 hours of sleep - that's more than enough for me to think about and keep me going through the day. i dreamt i met up with a good friend.. and that's it.

just before i typed this, someone who strongly reminds me of an older version of the good friend i dreamed about passed by my makeshift cubible/table and smiled, starting a small, casual conversation. it was a nice random event which just happened to go very well with the dream i had.

it reminded me that there was a good reason to smile. perhaps it was a happy coincidence - but then again everything does have a purpose and a reason, however disconnected from everything else that's happening it may seem.
it was a little good mixed in with the events of the day, like how a cube of sugar can make a whole cup of bitter coffee taste that little bit much sweeter - making that little warm drink ever so much more delectable.

this is just one of the little things in life which can turn a potentially bad day into a good day.

here are my two best friends for 6 years and counting.
they keep me company at night.
their names are cookie and little hippo.

they've been there for me when most aren't.

From Stuff

From Stuff

Nightmares.

yesterday, i dreamt that i left my laptop in an abandoned theatre with the odd mannequin in random seats staring at a ruined film.

i went back and found that it was missing, only to check the cctv and see two shady looking guys booting up my laptop, sniggering and running off the screen just before i went back to look for my laptop.

i was so distraught that i woke up in cold sweat.




this is one of the weirder dreams i've had.
gimme a zombie dream anyday.

Simple Pleasures.

a night of good laughs and many a round of street fighter with a few good friends..

these simple pleasures in life make it worth living.

no need to get caught up in the web of intricacies, or the many twists and turns of politics, whether around people i know or otherwise.

life is good when left as simple as it is.

Life is AWESOME.

i think life is awesome.

no really, i do.

imagine you had a glass that could contain 500ml of water.
it contains only 250ml. (yes, its the old glass of water argument.)

is it half full, or half empty?


i don't know about you, but i for one say that i don't really care whether it's half full or half empty - the fact that there's water in it at all is something to be thankful for.


life isn't inherently bleak - the whole universe does not conspire to bring down certain individuals or make life difficult.
it's true.
i've heard that old line "BUT LIFE ISN'T FAIR!" one too many times - even from myself.



unhappy that all your friends own the latest phones while you're stuck with a dingy old one?
unhappy that your parents don't seem to understand you?
unhappy that you don't get enough money from your parents to get that object you always wanted?
unhappy that everyone around you is getting attached while you're still single?
unhappy that the teachers in your school aren't doing a good job?
unhappy that your friends don't seem to pay enough attention to you?

consider this:

some people don't even have money for lousy food and a proper shelter, let alone a stupid phone.
some people don't have parents to have misunderstandings with.
some people don't have money to feed their children, let alone provide anything more.
some people don't even have a chance to live through their teenage years.
some people don't even have the opportunity to learn anything.
some people don't have the luxury of seeing their friends healthy and alive.


life isn't fair alright.
if you're reading this, you've probably got it easy.
stop and think for a moment - remember what you already have.

i scoff at anyone who mopes around and whines about their condition and complain that "life sucks!"
i spit on the notion that people think they're the only ones who have problems and that life is out to get them.
you have it easy, morons.


i don't know about you, but if you're moping and being all upset, you can continue not appreciating what you already have and be blind to everything, no matter little or not, that you have been blessed with.

i'll just appreciate life and everything i have.
it could be worse.

i think life is totally, totally awesome.





edit: i just recieved this chain mail from my auntie - and it seems to fit the theme pretty well.

I AM THANKFUL: FOR THE WIFE
WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME,
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.


FOR THE HUSBAND
WHO IS ON THE SOFA
BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.


FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME, NOT ON THE STREETS.


FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED .



FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.


FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.



FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE



FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME .


FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.


FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION .


FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM.


FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS

I CAN HEAR.



FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.



FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.



FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.