The Cliff.

those who have sight yet do not see
those who have hearing but do not hear
some may be true down to the core
others may be more than they appear

being drawn blindly like
moths to the proverbial flame
what seems light an outer glow
hides the fire's true name

time and again the blind lead
each other to a cliffside to die
and when they fall they start to wonder
"how did this happen, why?"

signs were placed for the sight that was not sight
verbal warnings for those that heard yet did not
over they fall onto the rocks below
their bodies doth fester and rot

those who have sight yet do not see
those who have hearing but do not hear
let it be said before the end
that the warnings were crystal clear.



you guys can go finish yourselves now.

Educate yourselves, people.
Your children need to know The Truth.

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It's Been A Long Time.

it's 6.28 am on the 14th of October, 2009.



time sure flies. it's the first quarter of the 13th day of my 19th year of existence.



much has happened.



it's 5 days til' the submission date of my internship report, and i've just only finished the first segment after 2 whole weeks of sloth and procrastination - this serves either as a break from the large amount of typing i did, or yet another avenue of distraction - i don't know.

i kept meaning to post an end-of-internship celebratory/reminiscing post, but i realised that nobody actually gives two hoots about what went on save the lecturer grading the report (and they're only doing this cuz they're paid to do it, not cuz they actually care), so it would be kinda redundant as well.



i shall attempt conclude/summarize my 24-week internship with one word.




awesome.




granted, there were rough times here and there, and it wasn't very smooth-sailing. however, those are the things which i can truly give thanks for. those were the true learning experiences i had - of course, the people around were totally awesome, the environment was good, and the free gym was even better.

all in all, i know without the Lord, the internship wouldn't have been as awesome as it had. where else would one find a kind and caring supervisor, a colleague who managed to bug me enough to get me off my fat ass to the gym, and the various motherly figures in the workplace who showed that much concern?






internship aside, there was also the issue of an obligatory birthday reflection on my life, but i decided to skip that as well - once again, why would anybody care? it's just last years' reflection with a little bit more added in, that's all.



people wished, i thanked, and that's all there is to it.



the only significance this birthday actually holds would be to mark the last year of my teenage years before i embark on a journey to serve the nation for 2 years and emerge as a man.

i've found that birthdays (or mine, at least) get less and less exciting as time passes. as a child, birthdays were really, really special - i remember the nights full of anticipation on the 30th of september when i just couldn't sleep, thinking of all the happiness and gifts that would follow after i awoke the next day.


this year's just came and went without so much as a whimper.


each birthday marks the start of yet another year of existence where more responsibilities would be piled on like trash into a landfill, where more and more bitter realizations would jump in and tear more holes in one's sanity, and where the world drums the reminder harder and harder each year that nobody actually gives a damn.

however, each birthday also marks yet another year that the Lord's goodness has brought me through.

for all i know, i could wake up dead the next day - the fact that i'm totally fat could result in the possibility of me having an asthma attack/heart attack in my sleep and not ever waking.
or i could get smushed by a passing car on my way home and have my guts paint the road a lovely shade of scarlet.

His mercies are truly new everyday.





this period of time also marks the last semester of my tertiary education in Temasek Polytechnic. little did i know that two and a half years would pass so fast - memories of secondary school still fester in my mind. heck, before i know it, i'm gonna be one of the worker drones that..

t-that..

..oh wait, i've already experienced what it's like.






i've been pondering over this post for nearly half an hour as the memories run past giggling and pointing.

it's time to get back to my report before procrastination gets its sneaky claws around me and drag my snoozing, sloth-like body back into its sweet, sweet embrace.

sometimes, i look at other people and wonder what it's really like to have people to make conversation with and/or be conversed with regularly.



like.. c'mon. have a regular friend to talk to?
that's preposterous!



i've never known something like that!