As We Go On
usually at this time i'd be starting my work, or wondering what other assignments come next while my body tries to convince itself it doesn't need to stay up late.
with the passing of this day, all that has changed.
the last day of poly didn't feel the least bit like the last day - everything went on as usual: bad jokes, jabs at one another, rushing into class late with a sheepish grin and everything. the same smiles/frowns were there and so were the people.
next week i'm probably gonna wake up at the same time i do every weekday and look around, only to realise that there's no more school to attend.
seems like a good thing, right?
no more projects.
no more nonexistent weekends.
no more assignment marathons.
no more lousy 2 hour sleeping periods.
that would also mean no coursemates to see.
all the laughter.
all the pain.
all the joy.
all the stress.
all the people.
all gone.
the projects that we went through together, the crazy submission weeks where all of us stayed online past the wee hours into the daylight, the times spend in the news edit room talking smack and singing along to songs blaring from lousy speakers.
the meals we ate together, the times we lugged the heavy-ass cameras around together, the times we suffered while filming and editing and most importantly, the seemingly meaningless moments when everyone just bummed around.
sure, we'd all promise to keep in contact and everything - but how many actually will?
the sands of time will erode some faces and erase certain smiles.
and after a while, little will remain but a slight hint of what was once there.
footsteps will be filled in, graves will be unmarked and forgotten, and flowerbeds will slowly wither.
today after lunch with a few friends, it was time to go.
one by one they left.
slowly but surely with every step, each one walked out of my life the very same way they disappeared from my field of vision - in some ways, it was a normal goodbye, but in everything else it was a farewell.
but i think we all knew deep down inside that this would be the last time we would meet and feel the same way about each other again.. and that there would be some whose paths would never again cross.
sure, their footsteps would remain for a while - and the photos will always be there, but given enough time, new footsteps would inevitably tread over the old ones.
somehow in the past 2 months, through all the blasphemy and madness i've gotten to know people i otherwise have never talked to - and there was so much communication it probably made up for the lack thereof in the past 3 years. it kinda sucks.
they come into my life and warm that little place in my heart in their own unique ways for that short period of time - only to leave it to get cold and emptied when time ushers them out the door, along with the others that have been there from the start.
it's kinda morbid how people are booted out the door. one moment they're there, and another moment.. nothing.
everyone knows "Graduation Song" by Vitamin C:
beautiful as it may seem, it'll never happen.
life goes on and people and times change, and everything will fade into the history books - just as the times in primary school, secondary school and everything else one might have experienced before this.
as tertiary education draws to a close and everyone gets older and moves on, hopefully these memories never fade completely and we can recognise and smile at each other if somehow, somewhere we see each other again - on the streets, at work, in the market, or any random place.
we all should have started talking sooner.
my mp3 player started playing "Say The Same" by Hoobastank - i almost changed the song but listened to it and almost regretted it - i had to struggle not to look like i felt the pain of missing people already. the lyrics screamed at me and punched me in the gut.
our paths start to inch ever so closely away from each other and continue to do so.
before everything gets too far away, i'd like to be thankful for everything and everyone that my path has been crossed by - and although things will never be the same ever, ever again, at least for the moment there is bittersweet happiness.
our time on this common battlefield has come to an end.
beyond this, uncountable others stretch over the horizon as far as the eye can see.
that brief moment when we were brothers in arms has come to an end..
and now we must fight our own battles.
So goodbye, my friends
Until we meet again
Some other day
I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn't change a day
I hope you can say
I hope you can say
The same.
damn melodrama right.
with the passing of this day, all that has changed.
the last day of poly didn't feel the least bit like the last day - everything went on as usual: bad jokes, jabs at one another, rushing into class late with a sheepish grin and everything. the same smiles/frowns were there and so were the people.
next week i'm probably gonna wake up at the same time i do every weekday and look around, only to realise that there's no more school to attend.
seems like a good thing, right?
no more projects.
no more nonexistent weekends.
no more assignment marathons.
no more lousy 2 hour sleeping periods.
that would also mean no coursemates to see.
all the laughter.
all the pain.
all the joy.
all the stress.
all the people.
all gone.
the projects that we went through together, the crazy submission weeks where all of us stayed online past the wee hours into the daylight, the times spend in the news edit room talking smack and singing along to songs blaring from lousy speakers.
the meals we ate together, the times we lugged the heavy-ass cameras around together, the times we suffered while filming and editing and most importantly, the seemingly meaningless moments when everyone just bummed around.
sure, we'd all promise to keep in contact and everything - but how many actually will?
the sands of time will erode some faces and erase certain smiles.
and after a while, little will remain but a slight hint of what was once there.
footsteps will be filled in, graves will be unmarked and forgotten, and flowerbeds will slowly wither.
today after lunch with a few friends, it was time to go.
one by one they left.
slowly but surely with every step, each one walked out of my life the very same way they disappeared from my field of vision - in some ways, it was a normal goodbye, but in everything else it was a farewell.
but i think we all knew deep down inside that this would be the last time we would meet and feel the same way about each other again.. and that there would be some whose paths would never again cross.
sure, their footsteps would remain for a while - and the photos will always be there, but given enough time, new footsteps would inevitably tread over the old ones.
somehow in the past 2 months, through all the blasphemy and madness i've gotten to know people i otherwise have never talked to - and there was so much communication it probably made up for the lack thereof in the past 3 years. it kinda sucks.
they come into my life and warm that little place in my heart in their own unique ways for that short period of time - only to leave it to get cold and emptied when time ushers them out the door, along with the others that have been there from the start.
it's kinda morbid how people are booted out the door. one moment they're there, and another moment.. nothing.
everyone knows "Graduation Song" by Vitamin C:
As we go on
we remember
all the times we
had together
as our lives change
come whatever
we will still be
friends forever
beautiful as it may seem, it'll never happen.
life goes on and people and times change, and everything will fade into the history books - just as the times in primary school, secondary school and everything else one might have experienced before this.
as tertiary education draws to a close and everyone gets older and moves on, hopefully these memories never fade completely and we can recognise and smile at each other if somehow, somewhere we see each other again - on the streets, at work, in the market, or any random place.
we all should have started talking sooner.
my mp3 player started playing "Say The Same" by Hoobastank - i almost changed the song but listened to it and almost regretted it - i had to struggle not to look like i felt the pain of missing people already. the lyrics screamed at me and punched me in the gut.
We've walked together down this winding road
In search of something true
Together we grew
But now our journey has come to an end
And it's on to something new
For me and you.
So goodbye, my friend
Until we meet again
Some other day
I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn't change a day
I hope you can say
I hope you can say
The same.
So many memories
We got to make
The challenges we met
I'll never forget.
'cause those lessons made us who we are today
Now we're taking the next step
Without a regret
No regret
So goodbye, my friend
Until we meet again
Some other day
I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn't change a day
I hope you can say
I hope you can say
The same.
our paths start to inch ever so closely away from each other and continue to do so.
before everything gets too far away, i'd like to be thankful for everything and everyone that my path has been crossed by - and although things will never be the same ever, ever again, at least for the moment there is bittersweet happiness.
our time on this common battlefield has come to an end.
beyond this, uncountable others stretch over the horizon as far as the eye can see.
that brief moment when we were brothers in arms has come to an end..
and now we must fight our own battles.
So goodbye, my friends
Until we meet again
Some other day
I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn't change a day
I hope you can say
I hope you can say
The same.
damn melodrama right.
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